Monday, February 4, 2013

Large Group #5: Dealing with Rejection


Hi there! Today Pastor Nathan came again to speak about dealing with rejection/criticism, specifically focusing on the not-so-familiar story of King David and Shimei and also some other examples of living people. The large group meeting was more informal and focused on discussion that was more personal, so it was a bit hard to take notes on. Nevertheless, feel free to read on! (The story about Shimei was very interesting, you should check it out).


Leadership:
Who are leaders? They’re not only those in charge, but people who create, who innovate, who envision the world, not as it is now, but as how it could be. To Nathan, leaders are people who bring this into reality.

The problem is, when you do that, you kind of put a target on your back. You’re implying that there is something wrong with the old ways and that you’re changing old traditions. You might have a few people like that at Caltech [who are innovative]. People who like the old ways could feel threatened, and so leaders are subject to criticism.

Someone noticed that when she’s in a leadership position, she criticizes herself a lot more than other people criticize her (her own insecurities). On the other hand, in larger groups (like the Avery candidacy debate just one hour ago) it’s so much easier to criticize people because you’re more anonymous. We noticed that on the web, it’s so easy to say so many harsh things without any self-censorship because you can remain completely anonymous. Nathan says there is a difference between valid criticism and attack.

There once was a king named David, and he had an affair à pregnancy à murder. And then even in his own household there was chaos: brother rapes half-sister, brother of half-sister get revenge, etc. So Absalom thinks that this king of Israel is not very effectual, and he thinks he can do a better job and stages a coup d’état.

2 Samuel 16:5-14

What is Shimei’s problem? He calls David a man of blood. Some of us agree that this is true. But Shimei’s main issue with David is that he’s killed Saul. But it wasn’t something that David did personally. In fact, David mourned for Saul and Jonathan and their household when they died. So Shimei’s only half right when he calls David a man of blood.

2 Samuel 16:8 Shimei is claiming that God is bringing all this on David’s head because he caused Saul’s death. Is this really all David bringing this upon himself? It seems like Shimei does not have what he wants and take this opportunity to take it out on David…

2 Samuel 19:18-23
The moment David crossed the Jordan, you see Shimei again. Do you think David handled unfair criticism well?
Someone said she’d want to see David’s tone. That could change the meaning of the words. Well, this isn’t the last time we see Shimei, so let’s read more…

1 Kings 2:8-9
David’s last moments, on his deathbed, rather than saying things about how much he loves his family, he talks about Shimei to be held guilty. And then he dies. So while he resisted the urge of murdering Shimei when he ridiculed/cursed him, twenty years later Shimei’s still in his head.

So David has a good start, keeps a cool head twice. But if we never confront the questions that our critics raise (not just “am I running the kingdom well”, which are all valid), but the deeper questions (like “am I not good enough to be here”, “maybe I’m not a really good student/friend/spouse/pastor/etc.”) these questions never really go away. And in fact these thoughts may sink in and stick with us for the rest of our lives.

It’s important to think “is that true about me?” David did not deal with that question, and on his deathbed, the idea that he did not deserve to be where he was kind of got to him.

In NY there’s a group called Improv Everywhere (they do flash mob stuff, and other things like stage a musical in a grocery store). One time they got a very new unknown band, and they’re playing this gig in a bar, expecting just a couple of people. And Improv Everywhere found out about this show, got fifty people together, memorized their names and songs and song lyrics, even made t-shirts, and then when the band goes on stage the fifty people just go crazy. [story goes on…] The band was very pleasantly confused, this was a huge encourage boost and they were motivated to raise their standard to that level. But the internet is very…easily accessible. And so people found the Improv Everywhere site and the band’s website and started posting all these nasty things on their site, saying they’re a joke, it was all just a prank, etc. [We listen to clip of interview with the guitarist after this incident].

The word he used to describe the event six months later was that it was a ‘gift’. Once he really honestly confronted those, parts of his worst fears (insecurities since childhood of being made fun of) he was able to overcome that. Maybe David did not do this.

Nathan went to a pastor clinic about theology stuff. He tends to write about very controversial things that people don’t take well. So he gets lots of harsh criticism. And when he was talking about how to deal with criticism at the clinic, he asked “do I seem like I’m at peace?” and the others there answered “yes”. He said, that’s because in the last two years, everything that could have been said about me have been said, blogged, tweeted, etc. And after all that, everything was still the same. His family still loved him, he still had his calling from God…

We can let these lies, these half-truths, or truths, stay in our hearts for the rest of our lives (like David, in contrast to the guitar guy or the pastor clinic guy)…

David’s last words to his son wasn’t like “Solomon I’m so proud of you” but more like “you gotta kill this guy.” In juxtaposition, see what God says to his son.

And we know of another son of David who was ridiculed and criticized and even dies and rose from the grave. And at the end…
Most/all the gospels start with Jesus’ baptism. And the sky opens up and says, in the 2nd person, “you are my son, in whom I am well pleased.” And if we can all start out with that love, those words from God, we can get deal with all the criticism and not let it linger and stay with us.

Then we prayed, and then we split into groups of 3 and talked about any insecurities we may have due to things in the past, if there was anything we’d want to do if we didn’t care about people’s perceptions of us, etc. I’ll leave this part out though.

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